I think i'll continue to have the mentality that i'll flunk my CL paper
I've got the greatest and shocking news from mummy:) HAHAHA ,
I'M FINE =DDDDDDDDDDD No need to stay at those kuku places anymore
Ronald, I'm sorry i gave you such a lousy piece of news in between papers
Don't come and blame me if your paper two doesn't score well:)

Daphne met up with Desmond and i kinda tag along since Ronald and Alex went home
Funny conversations , and i remembered that ' Yi Jian' incident.
Totally made me laugh till i almost spit my food towards Daphne's face.

I wonder what i'm going to do on 1 May, Labour day .
Play or to Study ? It's still a question mark

I met up with Ronald for dinner, or rather for his dinner.
And for that 1 hours plus that we were together, 70% of the time
i was complaining , whining, pulling my pants to prevent it from falling.
That comical scence. Damn.

tell me where are you
i haven't receive your replies
Me ain't in my best of mood
Me needs you

Worried

I need Retail therapy.
Audio-technica or Sony earpiece? never did i realise that i can't
rely on Nokia's earpiece. I made myself smile to almost everyone i saw
for the exception of some. Am i forcing myself to do it? Or is that
a real deep smile from my heart. No one knows, only me.

Tomorrow will be chinese paper, i pray hard that i won't flunk it.
That's the subject that i detest the most.
I kept quiet for 2 hours during chinese today, apart from asking
teacher questions. i thought of many things, (yes again, i know Ronald:D )
both fond and bad memories. I can't help but to get myself into
daydreaming whenever i'm alone. I can't stand being alone, i don't know why
but sometimes, Being alone perhaps help
i need to change, and i will. Give me time

i'll be sitting for the O levels in less then half a year
I'm not mentally prepared for it. Time passed very quickly this year
i thank God cause i got the support from Ronald
whom is always there for me whenever i need him. Love.
not forgetting mum's support only at times when i find her
but that's substantial enough.
I'm glad i've got friends who are there , encouraging me
whenever i'm down. TKPs never fail to cheer me up at times
friends too who knock and talk sense out of me
Life wouldn't be that great without any of them


Mummy, you know that i'm thankful whenever you're beside me
Ronald, you know that i love you
Daphne, you know that i'm someone who is always there for you to pyshco
Wanxian, you know that i'm always there for you to hear your grumblings
Phoebe, you know that i'm always there for us to gossip about things
Cherie, you know that i'm always there to blogshop with
Maosheng, you know that i'm always there to encourage you with my wise words HAHA
Tobin, you know that i'm there for you to whine about Ronald being a pig
Alex, you know that i'm there for you to mmmkay , and sibei style with

It really feels different being loved by someone
Different feeling when you love someone with all your might
and never get it back at once.

I feel blessed , with you loving me

Advanced Present

Life so Fragile.
You never know when they are gone


I've gone to Pungool Marina recently
together with Alex, Daphne , tobin & ronald
wanted to cycle initially but Jeremy took my bike away
and i've got nothing. bus there together with Daphne
and await for the guys to arrive
Ronald fetched me and i received my advanced 2 month anniversary present
two cuts on my legs from Ronald.
That happened when i was on the stand and him fetching me :)

Dinner at clubhouse and a total of $75 HAHA
Street basketball afterwards, and yea:)
I admit we ( or probably me) had lots of fun!

Who Are You

you are someone who i knew when we are in secondary three
you are someone who i enjoy talking
you are someone who i never thought i would be together with
you are someone who brought joy into my life
you are someone who i like to spend time with
you are someone who is there whenever i am alone
you are someone who would give me a peck when i cry
you are someone who listen to my grumblings and whinings
you are someone who never complains whenever i pour everything out to you
you are someone who makes me happy
you are someone who takecare of me
you are someone who gets worry whenever i am sick
you are someone who reminds me to take my medication
you are someone who can take my temper
you are someone who spends time with me
you are someone who vanessa did many things for
you are someone who ask me not to fret over stuffs
you are someone who gives me morale support
you are someone who i do things for
you are someone who shouts physical abuse whenever i poke you
you are someone who gets water for me when i just merely said i need it
you are someone who dote on me
you are someone who will make me happy whenever i see you
you are someone who has the power to let vanessa collect your work for you
you are someone who allows vanessa to get worry for
you are someone who will make me sad
you are someone who nearly make vanessa gave up

You'll never know how i lead my life for the past 5 years

I'm feeling very discouraged
by many thing, or Am i being too emotional?

I remembered either phoebe or someone else telling
me i'm an emotional person.
obviously i ain't feeling good now.


i can't spend time with Ronald tomorrow
cause he's going over to Tobin's house
and i'm heading over to HTA after English course
And What's a clique when you're being left out

It defeats the purpose of calling us a CLIQUE
getting over this matter, next week will
be the official last training that we're having as a NCO
Time really passed fast. Well, for sure there are fond memories

International friendship day performance was kind of entertaining
those bold sec1s dancing their way through
where i had an idea to keep making fun of Andy during training
his CHA CHA

Gastric attack during lesson time
for no particular reason
ron accused me of not eating
when i actually got myself noodles
Weird attack! Get away


Vanessa must learn to independent for now.
i should long have change away my habit of thinking
a little matter that would cause a molehill out of it.

A nice day to start ahead this morning
but got damn Irritated by some negative comments.

Some times i wonder , whether people think before they say
what for apologize for something you said that never went through your brain
I wonder. . .

Ronald I'm not weird okay! just that i was irritated for that first hour:)
That's all HAHAHAHA

Physical Fitness test, Mrs Ku told me to give it a skip
since i've got 4 months MC as evident.
so i just practically sat at that same spot through PE
helping her with sit and reach station.

humans test wasn't that difficult at all i suppose?:)
decided not to head over to Bishan. too lazy
Compass instead, BK and study :)



I caught a television programme just now.
Then i realized,
I've got many WANT TO DO in my to do list now.
I want to travel with my boyfriend.
I want to capture sceneries that are worth the postcards
I want to spend time together with my boyfriend at the singaporeflyer
I HAVE A SUDDEN URGE OF SITTING MERRY GO ROUND WHERE ALL THE HORSES ARE PRESENT
AND WHERE FAIRYTALE LAND EXSITS

It's been such a routine that i will go to school
every morning with a foul mood. ronald agrees too
can't blame, Life have been hard on me

My hongkong buddies( kk, chungyiu , tsz shan)
went back already ,10 days passed that fast.
we didn't have a chance to accompany them
except when during BBQ and campfire
which i mentioned previously.






I guess i'll be visiting them after O's
Who wanna come with me to hongkong?:)


Humans test tomorrow
Literature and history = Stress


Spent yesterday at potong pasir for treatment
and also Vivocity together with Ronald:)

i did something embarassing in front of him.
that's my perspective i guess.

I let half of it out already
Where's the other half?



DaphneLin told me


In a lifetime, a truly loving couple will have 4 types of ring
to signify the progress of their relationship

1. mark the start of the relationship
2. when the relationship gets stable
3. Engagement
4. Marriage

I did Cip At an old folks home and i got to know this
very friendly grandma. She's nice to talk to !
Some irritants just got me disgusted by the way they act
when they're in the home. All talk no actions.

Had Lunch at plaza and headed home with phoebe
As we decided to make Rum Balls. one point of time.
miss Choo kept laughing at me
when i talked with my grandma , and that couldn't make her stop laughing!
Rum balls was a success i guess ?:)
Here's a photo of it


headed over back to Hougang and accompanied Phoebe to wait for her mum
then i went over to find my hongkong clique
well, we were easily spotted by that yellow tee shirt
AHA, this is the only clique which can make me laugh from the start
till the end especially with JANE YEO



Headed to school for a game of Floorball
and BBQ which didn't had our share
and a Campfire which we felt we weren't invited afterall

But at least there were our hongkong buddies:)
I got my gifts from them !




Didn't got the chance to meet Ronald :(


I've got many WHAT IFS AND WHY in my mind
when i was on the way home and i thought of what i talked with
phoebe.

Met up with Ronald on Sunday
headed over to Compass then Vivo
Cause i have the sudden urge of looking at dogs :)
Spent our day there, went to the same spot
we went during cross country
spent 3 hours there talking, Time really passed quickly there.

yet another day spent with ronald meaningfully:)

I'm waiting for Ms Cherie Yu to upload photos

I've got my day all planned right and for all. :)
for just this once HAHA

I went to church with Annabelle this morning and something really got
me pissed off , but i'm fine after a while.
YES ! I FINALLY SAW RINA, FOR AFTER SO LONG.

Met up with Daphne , Cherie and Phoebe At vivo
before heading over to Sentosa.
Ms LimWanXian couldn't make it!:(
We did what you would expect how a girl .

Headed over to Sentosa. Weather was kind of good for swimming
but I felt guilty! AND I MEANT REALLY GUILTY
Cause Ronald came asking me how was the weather
and i told them it's SUNNY.
The very next moment, the rain was here.
by the time i messaged them about it
they got their tickets

so they practically got themselves into Sentosa's Palawan beach
got themselves wet and bath for 3 bucks.
had our dinner at kopitam and met up with ben

Fast and Furious 4 @ Plaza Singapura.
and what i didn't expected happened inside the cinema
The guys just lied down on the floor

So i had two seats for the price of 1 :)

Pictures are with Cherie.
Post it up once i have it

Another enjoyable day with you :)

Cool down Vanessa take a chill pill
you shouldn't cry over such trival matters
cool your head and everything gonna be fine

two words made everything con off
maybe i should change my perception of thinking

but why now?!!!When tomorrow is a fun day to spend time with each other
Yah, it's my fault

Schoolwasdamnitmiserablewithoutyou :(
Getwellsoondear:)

initally wanted to skip school
since i've been constantly having migraines
but the moment i thought of my buddies and Ronald
i didn't skipped school
but yada, ronald didn't attend school today ~
:(

i think i screwed up my chinese test
I want to drop chinese , but there is no way to
i damnit hate chinese


Jeremy dropped by yesterday. Coughing damn badly
Ahem-ing all the way cause of his throat
which made me a little irritated

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.!:)

SECOND DAY OF MIGRAINE
NOEL SAID IT ISN'T INHERITED
AND IT'S CAUSED BY STRESS

I wonder...

What happened today .
- Van screwed up her maths test
which led her to the verge of crying
- nearly broke down in classroom
- migraine came back after history lessons
once i stepped out of the airconditioned AVA
- kept quiet since recess
- had macs for lunch
- realised some bitch just wouldn't shut their mouths up
and wants to continue bitching
- got her gifts for hk buddies
making pheebs and dap to wait for an hour
damnyoushop
- spent her vouchers together with pheebs and dap
- finally got her notebook and everything can get started
- went to the doctor and realise that her bone was sticking its way
all the way , theshapedigustsme
- need to take extra care of her wrist
- SPAM CALCIUM!
- ahem is back

:)


Damnyoubitch

I'VE GOT A SEVERE MIGRAINE AND MEDICATION ISN'T OF ANY HELP!

Walked through the main gate today, cause i wanted to look up
my Hongkong Buddies. well, the next time we gathered would be
Campfire and BBQ on Saturday after 5pm.

Ihopeyouwillbethere:)

Suppose to have Tuition Marathon today
but kind Mummy allowed me to skip the one at night
Since i'm sick. Stress is catching up with me And i mean it

Semestral exams are round the corner. I don't want to flunk any of it
i want to score well. Many I WANT


TO DO LIST FOR THIS WEEK

- CHURCH
- SENTOSA
- CAMPFIRE AND BBQ WITH HK BUDDIES
- STUDY
- GIFTS FOR HK BUDDIES
Thanks pheebs & Dap
- UPDATE DIARY
- PEPPERLUNCH
- JACKPLACE

VANESSAWEEXIAOFANGISELATEDCAUSEHERHONGKONGBUDDIES
ARRIVEDINSINGAPORETODAY
ANDITSHER1MONTHANNIVERSARYWITHRONALDYEO:)

I suppose School Mission was fun cause afterall it's our last mission that
we're attending.Time flies. Got daises with Wantian and Clara from HM
And headed over back to school which then over to Airport

Waited eagerly when we saw that Hongkong buddies flight arrived in Singapore
I almost teared when i saw them .:) It's been months since i've last saw them
Caught up a little with them , and i went off
Tuition.
Ronald came over to fetch me at 8pm under my block:)
howsweetofyou.
Went over to Plaza Sing for dinner and caught Unborn
thanksdarlingforbringingmetowatchahorrormovieatnight

We went in late cause of dinner and yea
perhaps the show wasn't that bad afterall, since i heard
negative comments of this show.

Time really flies. It's been 1 month.
Ispentanenjoyabledaywithyou.

Happy 1 Month Together

Hey guys! i'm back from Ubin, HRC
It's the last time visiting there for my cadet life.
Double Flying fox with a height of 7 storey was the main excitment of HRC
& I DID IT! For that moment i thought of Ronald.
next i felt the tension and TADADAHHHHHH I was at the trolley already
Only managed to play
dangling pole and flying fox cause of my wrist.

Now I'm back from my HRC
but you're still at your hike

MONDAY!

Caught Valkyrie today at Balstier's Shaw .
quite a nice show, headed over to Novena then Amk
to meet Mum for dinner.

I've got my wrist checked again.
and it seems to have cracked according to the doctor.
Mr Sim's guess was correct, that i cracked my bone or something
Ha. torturing again.
I've got HRC At pulau Ubin On saturday
He got hike during the weekend

and there goes my weekends this week
i haven't gotten presents for my hongkong buddies
and they're coming on the 6th of April.

That's when i have school mission , and 1 mth. : )




You're the guy who took the crayon and drew in my life for this once
I love your presence